I am blessed

I know sometimes I can be a pain in the tush, I am extremely paranoid and I can go for hours thinking of every possible scenario that can go wrong in my life. I am glad that I have friends that I can talk to whenever my psychotic side decides to bully my rational side into hiding. I am lucky that I have a family who already accepted that I am not normal in any sense possible and I am thankful that I have Miguel. If you are my friend -- which you probably are, since you know that this blog exists, then you would know how much love this man gives me. It is overwhelming! His love and care and support is too much it spills to every person that is dear to me. I am blessed.  

Each time I encounter a rough patch I would think about how blessed I am. Sometimes I think I am not worthy to be this happy, I have a mean bone in my body and I have a tongue as sharp as a knife. I swear. I curse. I make fun of other people and still Papa Jesus gave me these group of people to love me and support me and take care of me and for that I am grateful.

I am thankful that despite the financial constraints I am encountering for the past months I can still provide for my family, I can still pay for my loans, our house and the monthly bills. I know I have to adjust my lifestyle and concentrate on what I need versus what I want. I buy less shoes, I buy less clothes, I buy less bags. It aint fun but the experience makes me grounded and mature. The responsibility that lay on my shoulders makes me wiser beyond my years. I am grateful for that. I see life in a new perspective, in a new light. I appreciate every single thing and person that surrounds me. Again, I am blessed.

The relationship that I have with Miguel is a journey. Every single day we grow together and as individuals - I never had this kind of relationship before. I know that this would last forever. I finally found my 'the one'. I am blessed. 

Each day I go to work, I am looking forward to spending a day with friends. We talk, we laugh, we plan trips, we eat. Not everybody has the luxury to go to work with friends. They make going to work bearable and because of them I forget every single reason that makes me not-wanna go to work. haha

I am blessed.